Car Shopping

Since my car is totaled, I'm going to have to go car shopping. Ugh. It's the last thing I needed right now. So, what would you get if you were shopping at this point, hoping for a kid, needing to driving in the snow, and hauling a kayak and a dog?

Busted cycle

It's been a crazy week. All over the place on business, different time zones screwing up temping, no CM to note, expecting ovulation any day. . .remember, I thought I would ovulate while I was away? Hah! How optimistic I was. Oh no, my body had other plans. . .the monitor had 15 high days, no peak, and then went to low. It doesn't look like I'm going to ovulate this month at all. I know that this happens to every woman every once in a while, but after everything of the last year, my mind has gone directly to the bad place. My eggs are old, I'm never going to have a baby, etc. You know the drill.

Luckily, the Big Project is in full swing, and I have plenty to distract me. Which is a good thing, because when I think about all of this right now I start to lose my shit.

And then, there is my car. My insurance company said $6500 in damage. But then the other insurance company for the woman who hit me said they were accepting liability, and they sent their own adjuster out. They totalled it. I so totally don't need to be shopping for a new car right now. It's like, the last thing I needed. But here I am.

If you don't ovulate during a cycle, how long does it take before AF arrives again?

Wordle

Lots of people have posted their Wordle , and I really wanted to do one, but needed to update my Java applet and just didn't have time. I finally broke down and downloaded it this morning, and voila, MY Wordle:


Wordle

I can't post it, because I'm apparently not techniclogically savvy enough, so you'll have to click through to see it. Anyway, I was instantly struck by what my Wordle is not, rather than what it is. While most of the Wordles I have seen from this corner of the world are about pregnancy or trying to achieve pregnancy, mine really is not. Which is weird, since that is kind of the whole point of this blog. Or, on the way there, has it turned into something else? Hmmm.

CD24, 11 days of high on the CBEFM, and still no sign of O. I'm also temping, and no temp rise, either. WTF. The second line on the pee stick was very dark today, so I'm guessing I'll get an egg tomorrow, but that basically means I'm O-ing on CD25 or 26 this month. Really, really GREAT--particularly since I leave in the morning on business, and won't be anywhere near Terrific T. for days. I actually found myself briefly wondering how long sperm would last in a turkey baster in my suitcase, but decided that's too wacky, even for me. I go back to the doctor for my annual exam in about a week and a half. We're going to have to chat some more about my ever-lengthening cycles.

Aches and Pains

$6500 in damage is the estimate on the car.

CD22, 10th high day on the monitor, with no temp rise and no little egg yet. I'm having ovulation-type pains on BOTH sides, and don't know what the hell my body is doing. Gah.

Good News/Bad News

Why can't it just be all good news?

My bloodwork all came back normal.

Some idiot plowed into me on the highway because she didn't notice traffic was slowing down in a construction zone.

I'm alive and breathing, and thankful for that. But it would be so nice if it could just all be good. Sigh.

Focus

I was reading along in the blogosphere, and came across a post by another blogger about learning that your life may have an abbreviated endpoint, and what that might cause you do do. It suddenly brought into focus brought my life and the things about which I am currently making decisions.

What would I do if my universe was finite? What would I do if I could not fail? If I knew I had only two years, five years, ten years? If I knew that whatever I set out to achieve, I would? If the possibilties were endless, but time and space were not? If the need for action and decisiveness were absolute?

Those are hard questions. It is easier to go sit in the garden. But I think I know the answers.

Lucky in Love

I currently have no fewer than 15 emails in my junk mail folder, informing me that I seem to have simultaneously won lotteries all over the world, if only I will just do them one teensy little favor. But, my amazing and previously unparalleled string of good luck has reached new heights: I also seem to also be lucky in love (despite the fact that I have no "porfiles" listed anywhere online and am certainly not registered on any internet dating sites. . .that I know of, at least). I received the following email this morning, with a subject line of "Interested in You"


I'm Miss Suzy Isaac, i slim in staure above all i like being honesty,trusted, sincere. I have gonne through your porfiles, it interest me to know you more, and I hope to use this opportunity to explain myself a little about me, i am fair in complexsion,5.9fit tall, 44kg. I wish you to write me through id (suzyisaac2004@yahoo.co.in). also i will send you my picture after hearing from you. Somethings I like to do in my spare time are gardening, home improvement projects, camping, bicycling in the park, backyard bar-b-ques, moon-lite walks on the beach, preparing candle-lite dinners for someone special, sending flowers to someone special for some reasons, sitting and watching the sun set with someone special, and cuddling in front of a fire with someone special. I enjoy cooking, gardening, playing billards, darts, dinning out, going to the cinama, traveling and site-seeing, museums, and concerts. I like almost any kind of music, but I think my favourite is instrumental jazz. i will tell you more about myself again in my next mail dear and hope to hear from you soon.
Love From,
Mis Suzy Isaac

I DO like pina coladas, and getting caught in the rain. I am NOT much for yoga, I AM into champagne. . .I like making love at midnight, on the dunes of the cape, and if she's the lady I'm looking for, I MAY plan my escape.

Which reminds me, I currently have a tremendous dilemma. The same cd has been stuck in the cd player in my car for months. The dealership couldn't get it out, and said that it would be about $200 to replace the stereo. It seems silly to spend $200 on a car stereo when it works perfectly find, and simply has a cd stuck in it. I intend to perform surgery on the cd player myself this weekend. If I am successful at removing the offending disc, I think that I need to be prepared to listen to the next disc I put in there for quite a while. This means, I think, that a mix tape is in order. It nees to be the mix of all mixes, since it may be in there until I get rid of my car. If YOU had to create one cd that you had to live with indefinitely and listen to over and over like Groundhog Day, what would you put on it?