So, my surgery is in the morning for the damn kidney stones, and of course I'm posting twice in one day instead of going to bed, because I'm anxious. Have I mentioned that I'm afraid of anesthesia? And also, of having a tiny hose snaked up through my ureter? And, of having a tiny laser snaked up inside my kidney and used to destroy things (which hopefully include only the kidney stone and nothing else)? It all seems so unpleasant. I really, really hate anesthesia. It scares me. There is a reason I've had two natural childbirths.
My mother, who hardly ever is difficult about most things, started pushing about just when I've had anesthesia and how I know it's not the greatest experience for me, and I didn't have the energy to tell her about my D&C, which I don't think I've ever mentioned to her.
I have to be at the hospital at 6:30 in the morning. I should really go to bed. But you know what? I think I'll finish SB's birth story, which I drafted a few weeks after she was born, but never quite finished. I'll set it up to post in the next few days. That will distract me for a bit longer.
Ugh. I really don't want to have surgery tomorrow.