Trying To Hold It Together

Three weeks ago, I had routine bloodwork done, just routine stuff as part of my list of things I needed to do before we leave for South America. Only, when I finally sat down with my doctor this week, she told me there is something wrong. She ran more tests, but they also show a problem. Tomorrow I will have another test, to determine if I have a tumor or something similar. I would be lying if I said I wasn't freaking out. Honestly,it feels off. Something feels of. I happened to have that kidney thing lady year, and the CT scan then didn't show any other problems. My bloodwork was fine last June. I am really scared. What has happened in the meantime? I can't be sick. I just can't be. I made the mistake of googling the possibilities, given the results of my bloodwork, and they are pretty horrible. I can't be sick, and I certainly can't die. I have two little girls to raise. Anyway, test is tomorrow. Please say a prayer for me that it is miraculously nothing serious.