Things have been crazy again around here. The girls stayed up in New England with T for a couple of weeks, while I had to come back here and work, work, work. It was a long couple of weeks without them. I thought I would try to accomplish a few projects around the house while they were gone, but it just didn't happen. Instead, I worked. This past week, I was in the office one night until nine and another until midnight. Meanwhile, I was still being pressed to go on the business trip for two weeks (I'm not going!). Sheer madness.
So as work craziness continues, I've been thinking about how best to manage career vs. family, professional life vs. personal. There is the one job that I've had my eye on for a really long time, which MIGHT happen. . .but I'm still not convinced it's going to happen. It's potentially worth holding out for, though, as the quality of life would likely be very good. There is another job that I've had my eye on that is right up my alley, but I think the hours would not be much of an improvement, and possibly would be worse. Then, surprisingly, I got an email out of the blue about a third job I hadn't even contemplated--it's potentially interesting, and I'm still exploring it.
I've been procrastinating on actually submitting my materials on the second job, and after tinkering with my resume for hours tonight, I finally just decided not to apply. My lack of enthusiasm in drafting my resume should tell me something. It would be a fascinating job, and I would be really good at it. . .but it's just not what I need right now. There are upsides to it (i.e., less moving around for my family--in my current field, moves are a necessary evil). But, I. . .just can't. I want to want it, because I know I would love it. But my personal life needs something really different right now.
As for the third job. . .I'm still thinking. There are upsides and there are downsides.
But for now, I'm on vacation with the girls--one final week of play before Miss M heads off to first grade, and SB to preschool. It is so lovely to have them back home, and I'm thrilled to be able to spend time with them after the last few lonely, hectic weeks.