Terrific T has agreed to Central America for our Big Trip. Now that we have decided, I am sure that I will change my mind at least 8 times, because that's how I roll. But, it feels right. If we happen to be knocked up by then and I chicken out on C.A., my backup plan is to rent a condo in Hawaii for a month.
In other news, I have been trying to work through some career issues. I love my current job, but I know that I've gone as far as I want to with it, and I'm looking down the road and trying to figure out where I want to go next from here. There are a number of things that I'd like to do next, but because I prefer the road less traveled, each of my desired options seems fairly impossible to secure. Then it hit me tonight, while giving a friend advice about something totally different: I don't actually have to choose. I don't have to check just one box. I can go after Option A AND Option B AND Option C, and whatever will be, will be. I am equally interested in all of them, and I've been struggling to pick between them. I've been completely stuck trying to decide which choice is the best choice for me at this juncture. But this, Dear Reader, is where fate comes in. I'm gonna spin the compass, and go wherever the winds take me.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
The End of NaComLeavMo
I made it! I did it! Boy, was that a lot of work. But I loved reading lots of new blogs, and hopefully you tolerated mine well enough.
I'm going to be making some changes around here in coming weeks. My blog is going to have some new hours. Specifically, I will only be posting on weekends, unless I really need to vent during the week. I promise to stop by your places once in a while, mostly on the weekends, but I sadly won't be around the blogohood much at all. The Big Project is in full swing, and things are gonna by wild for me over the next few months.
As for TTC, I'm feeling kind of zen about it, and what will be will be. The fertility/nutrition book came, and I'm hoping to find time to pick up a new supplement regimen tomorrow, and we'll see what happens with that. It's funny, my doctors haven't even mentioned my weight, but the book recommends gaining as little as 5-7 pounds to even out a long cycle. Thinking back, my cycle has been lengthening since I lost about 5 lbs, so I'm going to work really hard on that, too. I'm not sure cheese sticks and a reuben with fries, washed down with a coke, count as "nutrition," but that's what I went with tonight. And now, I NEED lemonade.
Happy End of NaComLeavMo to you, too!
I'm going to be making some changes around here in coming weeks. My blog is going to have some new hours. Specifically, I will only be posting on weekends, unless I really need to vent during the week. I promise to stop by your places once in a while, mostly on the weekends, but I sadly won't be around the blogohood much at all. The Big Project is in full swing, and things are gonna by wild for me over the next few months.
As for TTC, I'm feeling kind of zen about it, and what will be will be. The fertility/nutrition book came, and I'm hoping to find time to pick up a new supplement regimen tomorrow, and we'll see what happens with that. It's funny, my doctors haven't even mentioned my weight, but the book recommends gaining as little as 5-7 pounds to even out a long cycle. Thinking back, my cycle has been lengthening since I lost about 5 lbs, so I'm going to work really hard on that, too. I'm not sure cheese sticks and a reuben with fries, washed down with a coke, count as "nutrition," but that's what I went with tonight. And now, I NEED lemonade.
Happy End of NaComLeavMo to you, too!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Take the Poll!
I've noticed that there seem to be a lot of lawyers and a lot of writers who are struggling with their fertility. Maybe this makes sense, because more writers blog than other people, and lawyers tend to wait to have kids later. Or maybe I'm just crazy, and that's not really the case. Anyway, I've set up an informal poll. Please play along and vote!
I ovulated around CD23 this month. Each month ovulation seems to be getting later and later. I am feeling too lazy to walk out to my mailbox right this second, but I know that the new book I bought on fertility and nutrition is out in my mailbox. Or maybe my garage. . .I know this because I looked online, and Amazon says it is here at my house somewhere. It's not the new fertiltiy diet book that's been all over the news in recent weeks/months. The one I ordered is more than 15 years old, and published by some sort of Catholic organization. It supposedly has some good nutritional advice that might help fix my late ovulation problem. Since we still don't have the green light to start to TTC again, and since Dr. HooHoo isn't overly fired up about my late ovulation (but I'm neurotic about it), I figured that I might as well give the "natural" route another month to get my cycle in order, before I make a decision on Clomid (which Dr. HooHoo is willing to prescribe).
Incidentally, for those of you on Clomid, any idea how much a month's supply cost, if you are paying out of pocket?
I ovulated around CD23 this month. Each month ovulation seems to be getting later and later. I am feeling too lazy to walk out to my mailbox right this second, but I know that the new book I bought on fertility and nutrition is out in my mailbox. Or maybe my garage. . .I know this because I looked online, and Amazon says it is here at my house somewhere. It's not the new fertiltiy diet book that's been all over the news in recent weeks/months. The one I ordered is more than 15 years old, and published by some sort of Catholic organization. It supposedly has some good nutritional advice that might help fix my late ovulation problem. Since we still don't have the green light to start to TTC again, and since Dr. HooHoo isn't overly fired up about my late ovulation (but I'm neurotic about it), I figured that I might as well give the "natural" route another month to get my cycle in order, before I make a decision on Clomid (which Dr. HooHoo is willing to prescribe).
Incidentally, for those of you on Clomid, any idea how much a month's supply cost, if you are paying out of pocket?
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Show & Tell, June 22, 2008
I've been trying to live a little more "in the now." I always seem to have a list in the back of my head of things that I'd like to do "someday." I've been trying to make some of my "somedays" into today, with things both little and big.
So when a new day spa opened near my house recently, I thought I should check it out, and maybe schedule a little pampering. I ran over there yesterday for a few minutes, and they were kind enough to give me a tour. The space is really gorgeous and relaxing, and they offer almost every kind of service you can imagine. And did I mention they are RIGHT DOWN THE STREET? I booked myself a pedicure. While I was standing there, one of the employees mentioned that massages are half off through the end of the month.
I've always wanted to do a hot stone massage, and they offer them. So, in the spirit of "living in the now," I booked myself one for this week. I have a hellish week scheduled, and now I have something nice to look forward to at the end of the week. It's silly and insignificant, but it feels like a little step forward.
As for anyone who was wondering about yesterday , no I didn't. I am, if nothing else, a good girl who follows instructions. Well, most of the time.
So when a new day spa opened near my house recently, I thought I should check it out, and maybe schedule a little pampering. I ran over there yesterday for a few minutes, and they were kind enough to give me a tour. The space is really gorgeous and relaxing, and they offer almost every kind of service you can imagine. And did I mention they are RIGHT DOWN THE STREET? I booked myself a pedicure. While I was standing there, one of the employees mentioned that massages are half off through the end of the month.
I've always wanted to do a hot stone massage, and they offer them. So, in the spirit of "living in the now," I booked myself one for this week. I have a hellish week scheduled, and now I have something nice to look forward to at the end of the week. It's silly and insignificant, but it feels like a little step forward.
As for anyone who was wondering about yesterday , no I didn't. I am, if nothing else, a good girl who follows instructions. Well, most of the time.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Talk Me Out of It
I'm ovulating. Like, right this second. Peak on the monitor? Check. Right-sided ovulation pain? Check. Temp stable, and did not spike this morning? Check.
I want to try this month. I know it's a bad idea. I really shouldn't. First, Dr. G.I. hasn't yet given us the green light to try again. But, I'm better, and no doubt she will when I see her in a few weeks.
Then, there's the Big Fucking Project. I'm sick of it already, and it's not even really here yet. This is just a phase, for sure. But anyway, it's going to be enormously time consuming over the next few months, and who knows how my body will react to being PG, and it just really wouldn't be a good idea to have my body become a science project in the middle of the Project.
But I'm sick of waiting. I just want to fling caution to the winds and say "Fuck it," and see what happens.
I want to try this month. I know it's a bad idea. I really shouldn't. First, Dr. G.I. hasn't yet given us the green light to try again. But, I'm better, and no doubt she will when I see her in a few weeks.
Then, there's the Big Fucking Project. I'm sick of it already, and it's not even really here yet. This is just a phase, for sure. But anyway, it's going to be enormously time consuming over the next few months, and who knows how my body will react to being PG, and it just really wouldn't be a good idea to have my body become a science project in the middle of the Project.
But I'm sick of waiting. I just want to fling caution to the winds and say "Fuck it," and see what happens.
Friday, June 20, 2008
The Meme, Fully Annotated
I've seen this one going around, and liked it, but thought it would be so much more interesting annotated. You bold the ones you've done. I'm not sure I want to admit all of them. Hmmm. . .
Bought everyone in the bar a drink
Swam with wild dolphin
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
Been inside the Great Pyramid
Held a tarantula
Taken a candle lit bath It's like my therapy. No, my religion.
Said I love you and meant it Every day, baby, every opportunity.
Hugged a Tree Because I'm a freak.
Bungee jumped
Visited Paris More times than I can count. Love it every time.Watched a lightening storm at sea How about from the air? Do I get half credit for that?
Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise Regrettably often, and usually because something really, really bad has happened.
Seen the Northern Lights
Gone to a huge sports game Seriously, who hasn't done this?Walked the stairs to the top of the Leaning Tower of Pisa
Grown and eaten your own vegetables Amazing, unless you eat a slug.
Touched an iceberg How about a glacier?
Slept under the stars Also lovely, except for the mosquitoes.
Changed a baby’s diaper It's been more than a decade!!!
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
Watched a meteor shower
Gotten drunk on champagne With some regularity. Life is short!
Given more than you can afford to charity Also my therapy. I do it when I've had a bad day--I particularly like to donate to DonorsChoose, where you pick a school project to fund. They send you pictures of the kids doing the activity you funded, along with thank-yous--Priceless!
Looked up at the night sky through a telescope There IS life up there!
Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment Also more times than advisable. The inappropriateness of it makes the giggles sooo much worse.
Had a food fight Tomatoes, in the garden, at the end of the season. So amazingly fun.
Bet on a winning horse
Asked out a stranger Again, life is short--and they were cute!
Had a snowball fight New England winters demand it.
Screamed as loudly as you possibly can Rollercoasters. Need I say more?
Held a lamb How cute are they? At least, until they grow up and leave smelly poop everywhere.
Seen a total eclipse
Ridden a roller coaster They freak me out.
Hit a home run As a kid. No better feeling.
Danced like a fool, not caring who watched *See "drunk on champagne"
Adopted an accent for an entire day Maybe I'll do this tomorrow???Actually felt happy about your life, even for a moment Seriously, if you haven't done this, you need more bubblebaths, champagne, and tree-hugging.
Had two hard drives for your computer
Visited all 50 states
Taken care of someone who was too drunk They've been there for me, I've been there for them.
Had amazing Friends So blessed!
Danced with a Stranger in a foreign country Kissed him, too!
Watched wild whales Amazing and beautiful, when I wasn't yakking over the side of the boat.
Stolen a sign Does it count if it was from a frat house?
Hitchhiked in Europe And lived to tell the tale! But it truly is inadvisable on winding mountain roads with an Italian driver. . .
Taken a road-trip Ultimate freedom. Well, before $4/gallon gas it was.Gone rock climbing
Midnight walk on the beach It sounds more romantic than it actually is. Or maybe it's just my distaste for wet beach sand all over my body. . .Gone sky diving
Visited Ireland Green, goregous, and gregarious.
Been heartbroken longer than you were in love It really is worse to get left.
In a restaurant sat at a stranger’s table and ate with them Necessity is the mother of invention. . .and new friendships.
Visited Japan
Milked a cow
Alphabetized your CDs
Pretended to be a superhero
Sung karaoke
Lounged around in bed all day The ultimate indulgence.
Posed nude in front of strangers Who does this come up for? Swingers? Porn stars?Gone scuba diving
Kissed in the rain
Played in the mud
Played in the rain
Gone to a drive-in theater We had one in my childhood. I still love them.Visited the Great Wall of China
Started a business
Fallen in love and not had your heart broken Terrific T., of course. He sometimes annoys the shit out of me, but he keeps my heart intact.
Toured ancient sites I'm obsessed with them when I travel. The US has no history, compared to the rest of the world. Taken a martial arts class
Played a computer game for more than 6 hours straight
Gotten married
Been in a movie
Crashed a party
Gotten divorced
Gone without food for 5 days
Made cookies from scratch
Won first prize in a costume contest I got second once!
Ridden a gondola in Venice
Gotten a tattoo
Rafted the Snake River
Been on television news program as an “expert”
Got flowers for no reason
Performed on a stage
Been to Las Vegas
Recorded Music
Eaten shark
Had a one-night stand Does it count if you knew each other, and got drunk and only had sex once? I say it does, for this question. I've also been known to deny it!
Gone to Thailand
Bought a house And love that I own my little piece of earth.
Been in a combat zone
Buried one/both of your parents
Been on a cruise ship
Spoken more than one language fluently
Performed in Rocky Horror
Raised children
Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
Picked up and moved to another city
Walked on the Golden Gate Bridge
Sang loudly in the car and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
Had plastic surgery
Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have
Wrote articles for a large publication
Lost over 100 lbs
Held someone while they were having a flashback
Piloted an airplane
Petted a stingray
Broken someone’s heart
Helped an animal give birth
Won money on a TV game show
Broken a bone
Gone on an African safari
Had a body part below the neck pierced
Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol
Eaten mushrooms gathered in the wild
Ridden a horse And barely lived to tell the tale. . .
Had major surgery
Had a snake as a pet
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
Slept for more than 30 hours over 48 consecutive hours
Visited more foreign countries than US States
Visited all 7 continents
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
Eaten Kangaroo meat
Eaten sushi
Had your picture in the paper
Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
Gone back to school
Parasailed In the Alps.
Petted a cockroach
Eaten fried green tomatoes
Read the Iliad
Selected one important author who you missed school to read
Killed and prepared an animal for eating
Skipped all of your school reunions
Communicated with someone without sharing a common language
Been elected to public office
Written your own computer language
Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
Had to put someone you love in hospice care
Build your own PC from parts
Sold your own artwork to someone that didn’t know it was yours
Had a booth in a street fair
Dyed your hair
Been a DJ
Shaved your head
Caused a car accident
Saved someone’s life
Okay, I didn't annotate all the way through. It was a long list.
Bought everyone in the bar a drink
Swam with wild dolphin
Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
Been inside the Great Pyramid
Held a tarantula
Taken a candle lit bath It's like my therapy. No, my religion.
Said I love you and meant it Every day, baby, every opportunity.
Hugged a Tree Because I'm a freak.
Bungee jumped
Visited Paris More times than I can count. Love it every time.Watched a lightening storm at sea How about from the air? Do I get half credit for that?
Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise Regrettably often, and usually because something really, really bad has happened.
Seen the Northern Lights
Gone to a huge sports game Seriously, who hasn't done this?Walked the stairs to the top of the Leaning Tower of Pisa
Grown and eaten your own vegetables Amazing, unless you eat a slug.
Touched an iceberg How about a glacier?
Slept under the stars Also lovely, except for the mosquitoes.
Changed a baby’s diaper It's been more than a decade!!!
Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
Watched a meteor shower
Gotten drunk on champagne With some regularity. Life is short!
Given more than you can afford to charity Also my therapy. I do it when I've had a bad day--I particularly like to donate to DonorsChoose, where you pick a school project to fund. They send you pictures of the kids doing the activity you funded, along with thank-yous--Priceless!
Looked up at the night sky through a telescope There IS life up there!
Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment Also more times than advisable. The inappropriateness of it makes the giggles sooo much worse.
Had a food fight Tomatoes, in the garden, at the end of the season. So amazingly fun.
Bet on a winning horse
Asked out a stranger Again, life is short--and they were cute!
Had a snowball fight New England winters demand it.
Screamed as loudly as you possibly can Rollercoasters. Need I say more?
Held a lamb How cute are they? At least, until they grow up and leave smelly poop everywhere.
Seen a total eclipse
Ridden a roller coaster They freak me out.
Hit a home run As a kid. No better feeling.
Danced like a fool, not caring who watched *See "drunk on champagne"
Adopted an accent for an entire day Maybe I'll do this tomorrow???Actually felt happy about your life, even for a moment Seriously, if you haven't done this, you need more bubblebaths, champagne, and tree-hugging.
Had two hard drives for your computer
Visited all 50 states
Taken care of someone who was too drunk They've been there for me, I've been there for them.
Had amazing Friends So blessed!
Danced with a Stranger in a foreign country Kissed him, too!
Watched wild whales Amazing and beautiful, when I wasn't yakking over the side of the boat.
Stolen a sign Does it count if it was from a frat house?
Hitchhiked in Europe And lived to tell the tale! But it truly is inadvisable on winding mountain roads with an Italian driver. . .
Taken a road-trip Ultimate freedom. Well, before $4/gallon gas it was.Gone rock climbing
Midnight walk on the beach It sounds more romantic than it actually is. Or maybe it's just my distaste for wet beach sand all over my body. . .Gone sky diving
Visited Ireland Green, goregous, and gregarious.
Been heartbroken longer than you were in love It really is worse to get left.
In a restaurant sat at a stranger’s table and ate with them Necessity is the mother of invention. . .and new friendships.
Visited Japan
Milked a cow
Alphabetized your CDs
Pretended to be a superhero
Sung karaoke
Lounged around in bed all day The ultimate indulgence.
Posed nude in front of strangers Who does this come up for? Swingers? Porn stars?Gone scuba diving
Kissed in the rain
Played in the mud
Played in the rain
Gone to a drive-in theater We had one in my childhood. I still love them.Visited the Great Wall of China
Started a business
Fallen in love and not had your heart broken Terrific T., of course. He sometimes annoys the shit out of me, but he keeps my heart intact.
Toured ancient sites I'm obsessed with them when I travel. The US has no history, compared to the rest of the world. Taken a martial arts class
Played a computer game for more than 6 hours straight
Gotten married
Been in a movie
Crashed a party
Gotten divorced
Gone without food for 5 days
Made cookies from scratch
Won first prize in a costume contest I got second once!
Ridden a gondola in Venice
Gotten a tattoo
Rafted the Snake River
Been on television news program as an “expert”
Got flowers for no reason
Performed on a stage
Been to Las Vegas
Recorded Music
Eaten shark
Had a one-night stand Does it count if you knew each other, and got drunk and only had sex once? I say it does, for this question. I've also been known to deny it!
Gone to Thailand
Bought a house And love that I own my little piece of earth.
Been in a combat zone
Buried one/both of your parents
Been on a cruise ship
Spoken more than one language fluently
Performed in Rocky Horror
Raised children
Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
Picked up and moved to another city
Walked on the Golden Gate Bridge
Sang loudly in the car and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
Had plastic surgery
Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have
Wrote articles for a large publication
Lost over 100 lbs
Held someone while they were having a flashback
Piloted an airplane
Petted a stingray
Broken someone’s heart
Helped an animal give birth
Won money on a TV game show
Broken a bone
Gone on an African safari
Had a body part below the neck pierced
Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol
Eaten mushrooms gathered in the wild
Ridden a horse And barely lived to tell the tale. . .
Had major surgery
Had a snake as a pet
Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
Slept for more than 30 hours over 48 consecutive hours
Visited more foreign countries than US States
Visited all 7 continents
Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
Eaten Kangaroo meat
Eaten sushi
Had your picture in the paper
Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
Gone back to school
Parasailed In the Alps.
Petted a cockroach
Eaten fried green tomatoes
Read the Iliad
Selected one important author who you missed school to read
Killed and prepared an animal for eating
Skipped all of your school reunions
Communicated with someone without sharing a common language
Been elected to public office
Written your own computer language
Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
Had to put someone you love in hospice care
Build your own PC from parts
Sold your own artwork to someone that didn’t know it was yours
Had a booth in a street fair
Dyed your hair
Been a DJ
Shaved your head
Caused a car accident
Saved someone’s life
Okay, I didn't annotate all the way through. It was a long list.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Borneo, Again
The Big Project at work is getting more and more insane, and in coming weeks, I'll be here less and less. I'm going to try to keep blogging to stay as sane as possible for as long as possible, and I'm trying to finish NaComLeavMo because hey, I started, but no promises as to either. . .I expect that the next six months will be some of the most difficult of my life. Fun. I wish someone would wake me when it's over.
But since it looks like everything's a go on that front, it also means that Borneo is back on. I haven't told Terrific T yet, but I think we have to go to Central America. My analysis on this point is kind of pathetic. One, I've wanted to go for 14 years. Seriously, no one should go 14 years wanting to do something, and not do it already, unless they are incarcerated. Two, I don't have time to plan Borneo until it is literally time to leave, but since I've wanted to go to Central America for 14 years, I've planned the trip 84different times, and hence it's essentially planned. So, it wouldn't be any work to go there. I guess there's also a Three: the dollar is still doing okay there. Oh, and a Four: We have free airline tickets to C.A.
I think this is sort of unfair to Terrific T., because it's not even in his Top 3. But I think I've decided. Does that make me a bad wife? (Note: You must answer "No" to this question, because if you say "Yes," then the list of much WORSE transgressions against poor Terrific T. will mean that I am a truly awful wife, and you wouldn't really rain on my parade like that, would you?)
But since it looks like everything's a go on that front, it also means that Borneo is back on. I haven't told Terrific T yet, but I think we have to go to Central America. My analysis on this point is kind of pathetic. One, I've wanted to go for 14 years. Seriously, no one should go 14 years wanting to do something, and not do it already, unless they are incarcerated. Two, I don't have time to plan Borneo until it is literally time to leave, but since I've wanted to go to Central America for 14 years, I've planned the trip 84different times, and hence it's essentially planned. So, it wouldn't be any work to go there. I guess there's also a Three: the dollar is still doing okay there. Oh, and a Four: We have free airline tickets to C.A.
I think this is sort of unfair to Terrific T., because it's not even in his Top 3. But I think I've decided. Does that make me a bad wife? (Note: You must answer "No" to this question, because if you say "Yes," then the list of much WORSE transgressions against poor Terrific T. will mean that I am a truly awful wife, and you wouldn't really rain on my parade like that, would you?)
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