Saturday, June 21, 2008

Talk Me Out of It

I'm ovulating. Like, right this second. Peak on the monitor? Check. Right-sided ovulation pain? Check. Temp stable, and did not spike this morning? Check.

I want to try this month. I know it's a bad idea. I really shouldn't. First, Dr. G.I. hasn't yet given us the green light to try again. But, I'm better, and no doubt she will when I see her in a few weeks.

Then, there's the Big Fucking Project. I'm sick of it already, and it's not even really here yet. This is just a phase, for sure. But anyway, it's going to be enormously time consuming over the next few months, and who knows how my body will react to being PG, and it just really wouldn't be a good idea to have my body become a science project in the middle of the Project.

But I'm sick of waiting. I just want to fling caution to the winds and say "Fuck it," and see what happens.

9 comments:

seriously? said...

I asked for advice about this a while back (not the medical part but the project, for me plan). I am starting paramedic school in the fall which is 10 months long and you get two absences all year. It's two nights a week and all day every Saturday. I was thinking about halting our TTC for a bit until I would be sure to deliver outside of the class. I then based on the advice and my own heart (wanting a baby so badly) that WTF, let's roll on with the Clomid and see what happens.

Thanks for stopping by. Yes, my husband's career and hobbies make life chaotic, but it makes life interesting...

ginnygrl said...

Arg! I feel your dilema. As much as I desperately want to be preggers I'm continually looking down the road and thinking oooh, this isn't a good time!

Rebecca said...

I don't have any advice for you, but I hope you find peace with whatever decision you make...

PJ said...

Such a dilemma! There is rarely a really good time to be PG. Life doesn't often give us 9 months of peace, good health and freedom from stresses, etc. But this is one you just have to decide whether to go for it now or wait. Wish I could help! I'm a bit impetuous and tend not to follow "plans" really well. But...finding your own balance and pace is important. Best Wishes!!! Hope it all goes well.

Thanks for stopping by (NCLM)

Io said...

I vote for fuck it. Or perhaps your husband rather...

wanttobeamom said...

Thanks for commenting on my blog. I faced a similar decision when I started my current job 2 years ago. I decided to abstain for a few months so that I wouldn't chance delivering a baby during the busiest time of the year for my job. It then took me another year and a half to conceive a sticky bean. I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I had just thrown caution to the wind. I'll never know now, but I certainly didn't abstain the next year to avoid the busy season! I'm actually due at the tail end of the busy season...

Anyway, good luck with your decision. If it were me, I would probably go for it. The best you can do is follow your gut.

Lost in Space said...

I'm another vote for "Fuck it". There will never be a perfect time to have a baby. Lord knows I tried to plan and plan. I am also on a huge project at work that will be crazy busy for the next 8 months, but I don't care anymore. There will be another project after that and soon it will be too late.

Best of luck on your decision!!

JamieD said...

I'm the wrong person to talk you out of it because I also vote for fuck it!!

momofonefornow said...

Thanks for the comment on my blog.

I hope you enjoy your massage. That is one of my "someday" goals. Someday I will let a perfect stranger give me a massage. I really hope you enjoy yours.