Even though I am well into my 30's, I don't feel any older than when I was 20. I feel smarter, but not older. I have more confidence, but not many more wrinkles. I actually feel more attractive than I did at 20. And every once in a while, I still feel the urge to have a really big night out, as though I am still 20--I wanna forget all my responsibilities, get drunk, laugh loudly, dance on tables, and pretend I am still young and wild and free. I am THERE right now. Part of this is most certainly that I haven't been able to even have one little drink since March, because of all of the med's I've been on. Part of it is that, well, I just have an ITCH.
Which brings us to Show and Tell. I bought the super short plaid wool skirt in 1994 in Vienna, when I really WAS young and wild and free, and Terrific T wasn't yet on my horizon. I wore it in Prague while flirting with an incredibly good looking author who was a good 10 years older than me. Months after I met him, he sent me photos of myself wearing this skirt, standing on Charles Bridge. He went on to write screenplays in Hollywood. I went on to think of freedom every time I wore this skirt.
I think it's memories like these that make me long for Borneo, make me need wild nights dancing on tables. Sometimes I need to taste freedom again. Sometimes I need to leave my current world behind, if only for a night.
5 comments:
That is awesome!! I know exactly how you feel. It has been so long since I was free from adult worries and my only care was how stiff the bartender was with the alcohol.
You have earned a night out complete with drunken table dancing!!
So much fun, to reminisce.
You are wiser than when you were in your 20's and responsibilities criss cross through your life.
Make new memories with those you love now. Dwelling in the past has pleasure; just don't go back that far.
Happy S&T!
Alyson LID 01/27/06
Love it! We have a 'wild' night out with friends once a year and I swear I look forward to it all year. Problem now is that the kids get up in the wee hours of the morning and all I want to do is go home and put on sweatpants by 11:30pm.
That's a wicked skirt, and nice legs too!!! And I gotta say, Prague was one of my most favorite places to visit ever, so you even mentioning it totally gets me all swoony over it again.
I think wistfully of the days too when I had the legs to rock a short skirt . . .
Thanks for some fun retrospection!
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