Saturday, April 4, 2009

Show & Tell: A Belated April Fool's Joke?

I have been patiently waiting for AF. After a few days of being disappointed that we didn't get pregnant this cycle, I was actually fine with it, and looking forward to starting a new cycle. Looking forward, even, to our Clo.mid check appointment on Tuesday, because that meant we were moving along again.

Only, AF hasn't come, and I don't know what the hell is going on. My breasts are so tender that it hurts to walk down stairs (and I'm basically flat-chested). I have had tiny spots of pink-brown on my underwear once today, once yesterday, and once the day before that. My temp's are hovering around coverline, but haven't had a sustained drop. And I'm having the longest LP since I started charting two years ago (which could be due to the Clo.mid).

Based on my sharp temp rise after CD16, I would think that I O'd on CD16, which would make today 14dpo. FF changed my chart on about CD20, and said that I didn't O until CD18 (I had another temp rise from there). If that's true, then I'm 12dpo. So of course, since AF isn't here and I fully expected it to already be here, I tested again:

Does that look like a line to you? The test is an internet cheapie. The photo is taken the requisite 4-5 minutes after peeing on it. I swear I see a faint line. The line has actually gotten darker as it has dried. But maybe I'm just hallucinating. But if it is a line, why is it so faint, so late? I last tested three days ago, to no line. Well, that's not true. I thought there was a whiff of a line, but then I thought I imagined it, and it wasn't there when I pulled it out of the trash later on. When I was pregnant the first time, I got a faint positive line on 9dpo and a strong positive line on 11dpo. At 12dpo or 14dpo, depending on whether you're being pessimistic, that very faint line can't mean anything good.

I can handle being pregnant, or not being pregnant, but this in-betweenness is going to drive me insane. I've been sitting here for so long that the post office has now closed, and various other errands are going undone today. I think the only solution is to go buy a big pack of FRER's, and test again. I am equal parts joyously hopeful and darkly dreading.

UPDATE: I love Walmart. Three FRER's for $15. And a bunch of other crap I didn't need, just in case I found myself desiring a project to distract myself with. Which I do. Here's what the FRER came up with:

Um, that's a surprise. And it's darker than my 9dpo test from last time I was pregnant. Needless to say, I'll be peeing again in the morning. Could this really be happening?

2ND UPDATE: Because I'm all kinds of crazy, the day that I thought I saw the whiff of a line, I bought digital PG tests. I have this idea for how I want to tell DH that we're pregnant if it looks like this is for reals, and it might involve a digital test. Although, now I think I like the FRER better for creative purposes (that will have to be next week's S&T, if everything works out). Anyway, I had digitals in the house, but I was out of FRER's today, which necessitated the trip to Walmart. Because, I needed to see how dark the line was. But now that I've seen it, I just had to see what a digital would say. And here's what it says:

Wow. Two years ago this month, we decided to try for a baby. I really, really hope this one sticks around.

Wanna see what everyone else is showing, now that you've analyzed my pee sticks? Hop along over to Mel's show and tell.

27 comments:

Io said...

Holy crappola! Um, I see some lines.
I hope that this is not a belated April Fools and in fact just a kid who was slow to implant...

JamieD said...

Holy shitballs!! I see a second line sister.

I've heard of people getting pregnant on their first Clomid cycle but I thought it was an urban legend.

I'm so excited my friend Queenie is pregnant!!

Delenn said...

Oh, I think you are pregnant there, girl! Wow!

Jo said...

No doubt, you have two lines.

Congratulations!

Hugs,
Jo

infertilityrocks said...

Shut the front door! Hooray for you! Fingers crossed for a sticky beano!!!!!!

Bottoms Off said...

Looks like a second line to me. Congratulations.

JuliaS said...

I see lines!

Good wishes!

chicklet said...

Woohoo for a second line! I personally never even saw the faintest of faint lines until I saw my second one, so while now you've seen the big "p" word you already know this, but those are for sure second lines!!

Beautiful Mess said...

I saw lines AND THE word! Holy...that's SO exciting!!! Congrats!

beebles said...

i believed in the internet cheapie! yay!

'Murgdan' said...

Wow! Congrats!

c by the sea said...

yay! congrats!

jen @ negative lane said...

Congratulations!

I could tell from that first internet cheapie it was positive. With both my kids -- both Clomid babies, by the way -- I got my first positive on a dollar store test at 12 DPO.

Happy and healthy 9 months to you!

Manda said...

Holy fucking shit!!!! *crosses all available appendages for you*

Kristin said...

Oh yeah...THOSE ARE DEFINITE LINES!!! Woohooo and one hell of a show and tell! Congrats

Billy said...

Congratulations!

Raggedy Ann said...

What a fabulous Show & Tell! I see the second line! YAY! Congratulations!

becomingwhole said...

Wow! Sending out sticky thoughts your way...

Elizabeth said...

omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!

Cara said...

Wow! Congrats! Hey- there's got to be a first to combat the urban legends out there, right?

so excited for you!!

Cassandra said...

Oh my goodness, congratulations!

Carrie said...

OH MY GOD!!! YOU ARE KNOCKED UP!!!

I am so thrilled for you! I would've bought that many tests, too. ;) I hope this one STICKS!!!!

Hugs,
Carrie

WiseGuy said...

A second line.....loud and clear!

Congratulations!

You asked me on Show and Tell what fag season was...

I meant that they had bloomed in full season and now their season was ending...so a lot of empty pods could be seen.

battynurse said...

Yay!! That would definitely be a second line. Hope you have a healthy and happy nine months.

cysteract said...

Yep I see lines.. I call that pregnant- so cool :D

Erika said...

I would say you're pregnant :) Congratulations... I'll be sending prayers your way that this one sticks around and in 9 months you're greeting a new little one into your family!

Candice said...

Congratulations! So glad it is not an April Fools Joke!