Saturday, April 4, 2009

Show & Tell: A Belated April Fool's Joke?

I have been patiently waiting for AF. After a few days of being disappointed that we didn't get pregnant this cycle, I was actually fine with it, and looking forward to starting a new cycle. Looking forward, even, to our Clo.mid check appointment on Tuesday, because that meant we were moving along again.

Only, AF hasn't come, and I don't know what the hell is going on. My breasts are so tender that it hurts to walk down stairs (and I'm basically flat-chested). I have had tiny spots of pink-brown on my underwear once today, once yesterday, and once the day before that. My temp's are hovering around coverline, but haven't had a sustained drop. And I'm having the longest LP since I started charting two years ago (which could be due to the Clo.mid).

Based on my sharp temp rise after CD16, I would think that I O'd on CD16, which would make today 14dpo. FF changed my chart on about CD20, and said that I didn't O until CD18 (I had another temp rise from there). If that's true, then I'm 12dpo. So of course, since AF isn't here and I fully expected it to already be here, I tested again:

Does that look like a line to you? The test is an internet cheapie. The photo is taken the requisite 4-5 minutes after peeing on it. I swear I see a faint line. The line has actually gotten darker as it has dried. But maybe I'm just hallucinating. But if it is a line, why is it so faint, so late? I last tested three days ago, to no line. Well, that's not true. I thought there was a whiff of a line, but then I thought I imagined it, and it wasn't there when I pulled it out of the trash later on. When I was pregnant the first time, I got a faint positive line on 9dpo and a strong positive line on 11dpo. At 12dpo or 14dpo, depending on whether you're being pessimistic, that very faint line can't mean anything good.

I can handle being pregnant, or not being pregnant, but this in-betweenness is going to drive me insane. I've been sitting here for so long that the post office has now closed, and various other errands are going undone today. I think the only solution is to go buy a big pack of FRER's, and test again. I am equal parts joyously hopeful and darkly dreading.

UPDATE: I love Walmart. Three FRER's for $15. And a bunch of other crap I didn't need, just in case I found myself desiring a project to distract myself with. Which I do. Here's what the FRER came up with:

Um, that's a surprise. And it's darker than my 9dpo test from last time I was pregnant. Needless to say, I'll be peeing again in the morning. Could this really be happening?

2ND UPDATE: Because I'm all kinds of crazy, the day that I thought I saw the whiff of a line, I bought digital PG tests. I have this idea for how I want to tell DH that we're pregnant if it looks like this is for reals, and it might involve a digital test. Although, now I think I like the FRER better for creative purposes (that will have to be next week's S&T, if everything works out). Anyway, I had digitals in the house, but I was out of FRER's today, which necessitated the trip to Walmart. Because, I needed to see how dark the line was. But now that I've seen it, I just had to see what a digital would say. And here's what it says:

Wow. Two years ago this month, we decided to try for a baby. I really, really hope this one sticks around.

Wanna see what everyone else is showing, now that you've analyzed my pee sticks? Hop along over to Mel's show and tell.

24 comments:

Io said...

Holy crappola! Um, I see some lines.
I hope that this is not a belated April Fools and in fact just a kid who was slow to implant...

Jamie said...

Holy shitballs!! I see a second line sister.

I've heard of people getting pregnant on their first Clomid cycle but I thought it was an urban legend.

I'm so excited my friend Queenie is pregnant!!

Delenn said...

Oh, I think you are pregnant there, girl! Wow!

Jo said...

No doubt, you have two lines.

Congratulations!

Hugs,
Jo

Anonymous said...

Shut the front door! Hooray for you! Fingers crossed for a sticky beano!!!!!!

Megan said...

Looks like a second line to me. Congratulations.

JuliaS said...

I see lines!

Good wishes!

chicklet said...

Woohoo for a second line! I personally never even saw the faintest of faint lines until I saw my second one, so while now you've seen the big "p" word you already know this, but those are for sure second lines!!

Beautiful Mess said...

I saw lines AND THE word! Holy...that's SO exciting!!! Congrats!

Beth Kyle said...

i believed in the internet cheapie! yay!

'Murgdan' said...

Wow! Congrats!

C said...

yay! congrats!

jen @ negative lane said...

Congratulations!

I could tell from that first internet cheapie it was positive. With both my kids -- both Clomid babies, by the way -- I got my first positive on a dollar store test at 12 DPO.

Happy and healthy 9 months to you!

Kristin said...

Oh yeah...THOSE ARE DEFINITE LINES!!! Woohooo and one hell of a show and tell! Congrats

Raggedy Ann said...

What a fabulous Show & Tell! I see the second line! YAY! Congratulations!

Anonymous said...

Wow! Sending out sticky thoughts your way...

Elizabeth said...

omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!

Cara said...

Wow! Congrats! Hey- there's got to be a first to combat the urban legends out there, right?

so excited for you!!

Baby Smiling In Back Seat said...

Oh my goodness, congratulations!

Carrie said...

OH MY GOD!!! YOU ARE KNOCKED UP!!!

I am so thrilled for you! I would've bought that many tests, too. ;) I hope this one STICKS!!!!

Hugs,
Carrie

battynurse said...

Yay!! That would definitely be a second line. Hope you have a healthy and happy nine months.

Anonymous said...

Yep I see lines.. I call that pregnant- so cool :D

Erika said...

I would say you're pregnant :) Congratulations... I'll be sending prayers your way that this one sticks around and in 9 months you're greeting a new little one into your family!

Candice said...

Congratulations! So glad it is not an April Fools Joke!